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title = "trwnh.com"
summary = "trwnh.com is the personal site of a"
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## who am i?

hi i'm <span class="p-nickname p-name nickname fn" property="as:name schema:name">a</span>. <span class="p-note note" property="as:summary schema:description">perpetual student. (<span class="p-gender-identity">nb</span>/ace/<span class="p-pronouns">they</span>)</span>

### general stuff

you can probably find me around the web with the username "<span class="p-name p-nickname fn nickname" property="">trwnh</span>". it comes from my fleshform's legal name, "<span class="p-name fn" property="as:name schema:name"><span class="p-given-name given-name" property="schema:givenName">abdullah</span> <span class="p-family-name family-name" property="schema:familyName">tarawneh</span></span>"; just take the vowels out of the family name. 2014 they was so hipster. although nowadays "i" mostly just go by "a". historically i've had a really tough time with identity, so this is the best we're gonna get i guess.

<aside><small>(sidenote: i am apparently not the only person to arrive at these five consonants in a row. in particular, trwnh on twitter is not me; someone claimed my username after i deleted twitter in 2018. not that i really care about twitter anymore. depending on how things go in the near-mid future, everyone else might not care either.)</small></aside>

### concert/music/band stuff

i've used the names "<span class="p-nickname nickname" property="foaf:nick">obvious_humor</span>"/"<span class="p-nickname nickname">obvioushumor</span>" for my vaguely music/band fandom stuff, and "<span class="p-nickname nickname">birdsounds</span>" for more creative stuff like my concert photography. both names are references to lyrics by <a href="https://circasurvive.com">Circa Survive</a>, one of my favorite bands.

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Make your move, obvious humor<br/>
Desperate and respiratory plight<br/>
Always on, dressed to impress<br/>
I'll be the last one to find out why<br/>
Time takes its toll on us (this changes everything)<br/>
And I'd be a liar if I denied you at all<br/>
Oh, now that I know<br/>
This changes everything<br/>
I've been trading ideas with intriguing men, and I<br/>
I perceive an honest solution to all of your pride<br/>
[...]<br/>
I'm going home, but my own way<br/>
Going home on my own<br/>
I'm going home, but my own way<br/>
Going home on my own

</blockquote>
<figcaption>
<a href="https://circasurvive.bandcamp.com/track/the-great-golden-baby">
Circa Survive, "<cite class="short-work">The Great Golden Baby</cite>" -- Juturna (2005)
</a>
</figcaption>
</figure>

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And it remains the only meaningful mistake<br/>
But you won't let go, you don't know how to<br/>
And every morning I begin my dreams when I'm awake<br/>
Empty bird sounds are reminders<br/>
You're not awake at all

</blockquote>
<figcaption>
<a href="https://circasurvive.bandcamp.com/track/bird-sounds">
Circa Survive, "<cite class="short-work">Bird Sounds</cite>" -- Violent Waves (2012)
</a>
</figcaption>
</figure>

### gameing

most of my "gamer" stuff is under the name triggerofsol. the name came from boktai; in the first boktai game "boktai: the sun is in your hand", if you 100% s-rank and get all items you get "the highest title of the delegate of Sol the solar will -- Trigger of Sol". idk the boktai games are kinda quirky and left an impact on me during my formative years. vampires, norse mythology, magitek, post-apocalyptic absurdism, lotta good stuff in those games.

<figure>
<blockquote>
<p>"So you're the Trigger of Sol? How embarrassing..."</p>
</blockquote>
<figcaption>Sunflower Girl Zazie, in response to Solar Boy Django losing his Solar Gun "Gun del Sol" at the start of <cite>Boktai 2</cite> and being unable to defeat a low-level skeleton</figcaption>
</figure>

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